So today you are here because you chose to be and not because I baited you from Facebook or Instagram. Likely you did a search and one of my tags came up. Is that still baiting? Well, I never said I was perfect. But, then again, you were looking, so I think we have a mutual interest or two here, don’t we? I feel better about that.
This blog is about growth. It is about health. It is about trying to figure out answers to the deep questions and heal at the same time. I think they are very, very unfortunately tied together. It would be nice if life was compartmentalized and there was no interconnection between physical healing and our emotional and spiritual state but that is simply not true. If it were I don’t suppose we’d have a soul. If it were we’d be like cars or a machine of some sort. Fix the car or machine to it’s manufactures specifications and it does what it is supposed to do. End of story. We, on the other hand are not so simple, are we? We are complicated. We do many things for reasons that we are not even aware of most the time and those things have consequences. I guess the good thing about consequences is that you can, if you are so inclined, learn from them. Pain has a funny way of producing awareness or consciousness.
So I had a valuable experience this week. It is really a few lessons tied into one big one. OK, I honestly relearned it, because I believe this one has come around again, and again, and again……. just in different forms. It seems to be a theme in my life. You get the picture.
Codependent relationships are a type of dysfunctional helping relationship where one person supports or enables another person’s addiction, poor mental health, immaturity, irresponsibility, or under-achievement. Among the core characteristics of codependency, the most common theme is an excessive reliance on other people for approval and identity.
ME!!!!! The me I no longer want to be! (hey that rhymes) 😉
Well, old “co-dependency” raised her ugly head again. I didn’t even know she was there until it was too late. There were some subtle hints and I should have paid attention but I got “caught up” in good feelings and ignored some red flags I shouldn’t have. The truth was being shown to me but a part of me did not want to see it, the feeling part, and all those feel good chemicals covered up what was in plain site. Oh how hard we work to believe what we want to! It is pretty pathetic really.
So I got hurt, and guess what, I am responsible for that, because this time, I knew better. I am really hoping there will not be a next time. I need to be more aware and beware of believing what I want to believe rather than what I see. Best advice ever….when someone shows you who they are…..believe them.